Friday, August 1, 2008.

what's happening to me?

i really need to think...i totally had a break down the day before yesterday. i couldnt find my CD the form and i was just frantic...i was like whats happenning? then i cried...everyone is pressuring me. they want something. whats happening to the people around me? whats happening to them? what the HECK are they doing?

today when i was walking home, i suddenly had the urge to speak to God....i walked to church[the one near my house]...only that i had no idea where the prayer room was. i really have alot of things to tell him and alot of questions to ask. i hope dear Lord, u can lead me to the right direction. Lord, i will do all i can to move in the direction u lead me to. Lord, i thank u for all the times u have laid a comforting hand on my shoulder whenever i was crying silently alone. i know that only YOU alone understand my need to cry alone. i thank u for always leading me to the right path even though i didn't listen to you for a period of time. i thank u Lord, for always being by me even though i'm not Christian or Catholic. i thank u lord for believing that i believe in u although im not allowed to convert. thank u lord...

btw ppl, im NOT Christian or Catholic. i just believe in God.

i LOVe my lovelies.
dear Lord, please guide me.

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